Lesson 7 – I see only the past.

When I first encountered this lesson, it created a HUGE shift in my understanding.  When it said, “look at a cup”, I picked up my coffee cup and literally looked at it.

Do you see a cup, or are you merely reviewing your past experiences of picking up a cup, being thirsty, drinking from a cup, feeling the rim of a cup against your lips, having breakfast, falling to the floor and breaking, and so on?

If you had never seen a cup before, would you know what it is for?  If so, how?  Based on past experiences of similar items, right?  You don’t see the cup as it is, you see it according to your experiences of it, which are always in the past.   If you only know what the cup “is” based on your past experiences, do you actually see it?

No.  We see only the past because we project our past experiences onto the present.  ACIM says that this idea is particularly difficult to believe at first. Yet it is the rationale for all of the preceding ones.

It is the reason why nothing that you see means anything.
It is the reason why you have given everything you see all the meaning that it has for you.
It is the reason why you do not understand anything you see.
It is the reason why your thoughts do not mean anything, and why they are like the things you see.
It is the reason why you are never upset for the reason you think.
It is the reason why you are upset because you see something that is not there.

Everything we believe is rooted in time.   We believe we see a cup because our belief is rooted in time.

  • I see only the past in this plant.
  • I see only the past in this cat.
  • I see only the past in this pillow.
  • I see only the past in that television set.
  • I see only the past in that rocking chair.
  • I see only the past in that chest.
  • I see only the past in that fireplace.
  • I see only the past in that bathroom.
  • I see only the past in that bottle.
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Lesson 6 – I am upset because I see something that is not there.

The exercises with this idea are very similar to the preceding ones. Again, it is necessary to name both the form of upset (anger, fear, worry, depression and so on) and the perceived source very specifically for any application of the idea.

  • I am nervous about my daughter taking her exams because I see something that is not there.
  • I am anxious about maintaining too many blogs because I see something that is not there.
  • I am angry with the school district because I see something that is not there.
  • I am frustrated with my dryer that hasn’t worked right for 7 years because I see something that is not there.
  • I am concerned about my daughter going back to school because I see something that is not there.
  • I am worried about my health because I see something that is not there.
  • I am embarrassed about my messy house because I see something that is not there.
  • I am afraid of what is going to happen in the future because I see something that is not there.

That last one finally made the whole exercise make sense.  There are no small upsets.  They are all equally disturbing to my peace of mind.

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Journey Without Distance by Robert Skutch

Apparently, Robert Skutch was married to Judith Skutch,  He talked about himself in the third person which was kind of weird.  A lot of Journey Without Distance was weird to me.  It seemed like an advertisement for ACIM, which I suppose would make sense because Robert Skutch once wrote advertising copy for a living.  I found it to be so overly simplistic that I know had I read this before I had actually studied ACIM on my own, I would have thought of ACIM as nothing more than a cheap new age philosophy.

Here is an example from p. 120:  “Judy made a short speech of thanks for all the miracles that had happened to allow the books to be born in the way they had.  Starting with Helen’s images and the Voice, she went straight through the list all the way down to the miracle of how the publishing of the books had been financed.  And as she held the three volumes in her hands, she – and everyone else in the room – knew without a doubt that through listening to their inner voices, A Course in Miracles had been beautifully guided to its perfect birth.

Everyone in the room knew without a doubt?  Beautifully guided to its perfect birth?  Blechy new age marketing.

Needless to say, I don’t exactly trust the content of this book.  I was left wondering if perhaps the main players that Skutch talks about had taken serious advantage of Helen Schucman?  That tends to happen to geniuses.   People often exploit them or undermine them in some devious way for their own gain.  I’m not saying that happened, just that I had never considered it until after reading this book.

A lot of people recommend Journey Without Distance as the perfect introduction to A Course in Miracles.  Personally, I think you would be much better off studying the text on your own for a while (or with a group) before reading Skutch’s book, my blog, or anything else for that matter.  I think it is very important to form your own opinion about any spiritual discipline, then compare your opinion to the opinions of others.

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Lesson 5 – I am never upset for the reason I think.

There are no small upsets.
They are all equally disturbing to my peace of mind.

The last time I did these lessons, we had a neighbor who liked to listen to the football game from his truck radio very loudly on Saturday mornings while he was working in the garage. It could be heard clearly through our bedroom window and muffled through our den which ruined my wonderful Saturday morning reading sessions.  The reason it upset me was because I encountered an internal battle. If I were a “nice, sweet” person, it wouldn’t have bothered me. But it did.

I don’t like being thought of as a controlling bitch.  I want to be sweet and nice.  So I never once said anything about how loud this man’s radio was, completely resenting the poor guy the entire time he lived next door to us.  The problem, of course, wasn’t my neighbor or his radio blaring from the driveway. The problem was that I was wrapped up in my image, and that image was based upon expectations set in my past.

When I was a girl, I used to pray to God to make me “sweet”.  I’d make New Year’s resolutions about it and remind myself every morning, “today I am going to be sweet” (which meant meek and mild).  Of course, I never figured out how to make it happen. But the fact that I’m not sweet still upsets me.

  • I am not upset for not being sweet for the reasons I think.
  • I am not angry with my son for the reason I think.
  • I am not concerned about my daughter going back to school for the reason I think.
  • I am not worried about the curve in her spine for the reason I think.
  • I not upset about not having a career for the reason I think.
  • I am not nervous about my son moving out for the reason I think.
  • I am not upset about not being able to walk without pain for the reason I think.
  • I am not frustrated with my lack of energy for the reason I think.
  • I am not overwhelmed by the amount of housework that needs to be done for the reason I think.
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Lesson 4 – These thoughts do not mean anything.

This thought about ___ does not mean anything.
It is like the things I see in this room [on this street, and so on].

* This thought about my throat constantly hurting does not mean anything.
* This thought about my son driving safely does not mean anything.
* This thought about the cats being hungry does not mean anything.
* this thought about what to cook for dinner does not mean anything.
* This thought about actually liking cauliflower soup does not mean anything.
* This thought about why my husband gaseped does not mean anything.
* This thought about my foot not hurting at the moment does not mean anything.
* This thought about how squeaky our floors are does not mean anything.
* This thought about wishing I could get rid of our crappy carpet does not mean anything.
* This thought that the plants might need watering does not mean anything.
* This thought that I wish it would rain does not mean anything.
* This thought about how much rain we have had does not mean anything.
* This thought about what it would be like to have a drought does not mean anything.

It thoughts go on and on and on and on.

To be repeated no more than three or four times during the day.

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Lesson 3 – I do not understand anything I see.

The point of the exercises is to help you clear your mind of all past associations, to see things exactly as they appear to you now, and to realize how little you really understand about them. It is therefore essential that you keep a perfectly open mind, unhampered by judgment, in selecting the things to which the idea for the day is to be applied. For this purpose one thing is like another; equally suitable and therefore equally useful.

* I do not understand that plant.
* I do not understand that Van Gogh print.
* I do not understand that cat.
* I do not understand those tiles.
* I do not understand that fan.
* I do not understand that blackboard.
* I do not understand that oven.
* I do not understand those curtains.

I do not understand anything I see in this room.

I do not understand anything I see through that window.

I do not understand anything I see.

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Lesson 2 – I have given everything I see all the meaning it has for me.

The sole criterion for applying the idea to anything is merely that your eyes have lighted on it. Make no attempt to include anything particular, but be sure that nothing is specifically excluded.

* I have given that boy all the meaning it has for me.
* I have given that blanket all the meaning it has for me.
* I have given that rocking chair all the meaning it has for me.
* I have given that television set all the meaning it has for me.
* I have given that book all the meaning it has for me.
* I have given that piano all the meaning it has for me.
* I have given that box of Fruity Cheerios all the meaning it has for me.
* I have given that bird across the street all the meaning it has for me.

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Lesson 1 – Nothing I see means anything.

This lesson so freaked me out the first time I encountered it. When I first started ACIM, I was a fairly conservative Christian and was convinced ACIM was a cult. How better to brain wash people than to tell them that nothing they see means anything? Just empty their brains and then you can dump whatever meaning you want into them.

But then again, if nothing I see means anything, then whatever meaning a cult would want me to take on would be meaningless, too.

What I see is meaningless. I give it all the meaning it has. If I accept the meaning a cult imposes upon me, then that’s the meaning I give it. But in and of itself, it has no meaning. I have created the meaning.

* That man does not mean anything.
* That table does not mean anything.
* That rug does not mean anything.
* That computer does not mean anything.
* That lamp does not mean anything.
* That cat does not mean anything.
* That door does not mean anything.
* That car does not mean anything.
* That tree does not mean anything.

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Issues With the Origination of ACIM

I watched part of a film on-line a few days ago that explained how ACIM came to be and, as usual, I found myself bothered by how it came to be. I’ve always had problems fathoming stuff like channeling, especially channeling Jesus. That just seems way too bizarre. But I could potentially grasp on to channeling Universal Mind or the Higher Self. I genuinely believe there is some sort of collective intelligence we are all capable of tapping into. I think people are doing it all the time. I just don’t know that I could possibly believe that it was Jesus who was being channeled.

Of course, Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance immediately comes to mind. Pirsig had a fantastic explanation for reincarnation – it’s not that actual personalities are reincarnated, it’s energy patterns that reincarnate. So perhaps what Schucman (the scribe of ACIM) channeled was a pattern that she simply identified as Jesus. I don’t know. I’m not sure it will ever make sense to me.

Willis (Bill) Harman once asked Helen how it happened that the remarkable document she had been responsible for had brought wisdom and peace to so many, yet it was seemingly ineffective for her. She replied, “I know the Course is true, Bill, but I don’t believe it.”

I guess that’s how I’ve felt about it for the past 20 years. You can feel the truth in it, but actually believing it is a different matter altogether. Then again, belief is all wrapped up in our egoic projections so maybe it was never meant to be believed. All we ever really believe in are our own ideas about things, not their actuality. As Plato said, belief lies somewhere between illusion and reality. It isn’t reality.

All I know is that when I’m following the ACIM lessons, my life is much more peaceful. It’s not because disruptive things suddenly quit happening, it’s simply that I’m able to deal with what happens much more effectively.

This time I’m going to really try to keep an open mind. I think it will help to have my husband do the lessons with me.

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Encountering ACIM

My first encounter with ACIM was in 1990. My husband and I had been assigned pre-marital counseling by the Catholic Church we attended. The counselor felt that ACIM would be right up my alley, she so encouraged me to get a copy of the text, which I did. I started to read it but found it way too confusing so immediately gave up until a few years later.

In 1992, I was in a Dallas bookstore buying a copy of Anthony de Mello’s Awareness for a friend. As I was checking out, a woman came in asking for the exact book I had just purchased. I was able to tell her there was one more copy left and I showed her where to find it. It was an unusual book to buy, and mentioning the synchronicity of our meeting, she asked me if I knew anything about ACIM. I told her I had the book but I didn’t really know anything about it. She gave me her card and told me there was a nearby ACIM group that met every week – call her.

I didn’t call her until two years later, in 1994 after I had read Marianne Williamson’s A Return to Love. Unfortunately, the woman no longer attended the meeting, but she gave me the details and I ended up attending almost every week for the next year. The group would read through the text together and if anyone had a thought, they’d voice it to the group and we would discuss it. We got through a good portion of the mid to end part of the text, but that was the extent of my study.

In 1995, we moved to California. There was a group that met in Fullerton through the Miracle Distribution Center, but I didn’t particularly care for it. The philosophy was a little too new-age for my tastes. I tried another group but didn’t particularly like it either, so quit studying it altogether. I did attend the conventions that were held in Anaheim by the Miracle Distribution Center, however. I went to all of those while I was living in California and got to hear great speakers like Hugh Prather, Marianne Williamson, Jerry Jampolsky, Diane Cirincione, Lee Jampolsky, Judith Skutch, Patrick Miller, Frances Vaughn, Roger Walsh, and many other long-time students of ACIM. I found their ideas fascinating, but never fascinating enough to actually pick up the book and study it on my own.

After we moved back to Texas, I didn’t think about it at all for almost 5 years, until I went to a Spiritual Counselor who was s longtime student and teacher of ACIM. She encouraged me to read various sections, which I did, but I didn’t actually start working my way through the lessons until a few years ago, after I heard a talk by Kenneth Wapnick comparing Nietzsche’s three stages (camel, lion child) in Thus Spoke Zarathustra with ACIM. I had made a serious study of the Existentialists and had found Nietzsche particularly enthralling. His stages seemed to me to be the stuff of mystics. I was thrilled to find out that these same stages show up in ACIM. I didn’t entirely agree with Wapnick’s understanding of Nietzsche’s “child” stage, however. It seemed to me that what Wapnick was saying there is some sort of final destination and I don’t see it that way at all. I think Nietzsche’s stages represent a never ending journey of becoming. There IS no final destination. It’s a constant journey of becoming.

Anyway, that comparison finally gave me the encouragement to work through the lessons. I got all the way through Lesson 270 and beyond, and then got distracted by raising teens, I suppose.

I was mentioning to my husband what Helen Schucman (the scribe of ACIM) had said to Willis (Bill) Harman: “I know it’s true, but I don’t believe it.” That’s been my same struggle for 20 years. I can feel the truth of it, I just don’t always believe it. What I do know is that I was able to deal with what went on in my life much better when I was making my way through the Lessons than I have been lately. My husband said he’d like to work through the lessons with me.

Starting July 10, 2010, we are beginning with Lesson 1.

Join us!

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